how to.

Listen to your favorite song.

Many times. 

Im talking on repeat for hours upon hours. 

Feel sorry for yourself. 

Not for long, 

but right now its good for you because 

you deserve to pity yourself when it seems like

no one else cares. 

Whatever you do, 

don't forget to plaster that ridiculous smile on your face.

That will be key in your journey to being okay. 

Its been said, that after a while you'll start to believe it's real. 

Make sure that the only tears that come are the one's from laughing.

Laugh by yourself, and at things that only make you laugh. 

You're not crazy, just lonely 

and loneliness, 

it's a drug. 

Don't cry, 

Just don't do it. 

But if you must , make sure you're by yourself, 

because people don't care.

Okay that was blunt, but as much as it hurts, its true.  

Distract yourself,

Don't think about the movie you used to watch with him,

or the lies you just told your parents

or the secrets you've kept from her. 

Write a letter, with everything you wish you would've said. 

Think about your favorite words. 

Think about the things you would've said to his face. 

Think about the good times, 

Your favorite memory of your speckled bathroom floor in your first house. 

I should've told you before hand that there is no guarantee that these things make you okay.

 Because who knows, maybe we'll never be anything more than okay.